Our 2 week vacation flew by and we find ourselves back in Chicago. I have pictures and suggestions for Amsterdam, Paris and London that I’ll compile and post soon because why not. We had a really great time and it’s a little hard to be back becase a) it was a kickass vacation, b) there’s alot of unknown ahead and c) jet lag can be a real D-bag. The trip and time away gave us some time to reflect a bit, not think about things a bit and the ability to talk face-to-face with some of our dearest friends about what’s been up and to get their solid support and empathy. We also just had an amazing time seeing alot of beautiful things and spending a whole lotta time together.
I also realized while we were gone that it was the first time in 8 months that my body wasn’t on birth control pills or being jacked up with follistim, menopur, lupron, trigger shots, progesterone, etc.
It was real nice.
However, my body also feels a bit used…. I’m heavier for one. I got on the scale this morning (I know, why do that). I think it’s a combination of IVF meds and European indulgence, though we walked a ton and biked alot to balance things out….but I did put my face in alot of appeltart, cheese, stroopwafels…and there was a rather infamous rustic bread, butter and raspberry jam incident in Paris. Regardless, I don’t feel so hot about my physical form so hopefully I can make some progress on that soon. I’m on the short side so even a few pounds feels like alot, and I’d like to be as healthy as possible if I’m either a) about to be pregnant or b) about to hunker down into a likely stressful adoption process. I’ve got a YMCA membership and alot of videos lined up on AmazonPrime streaming….so wish me luck. (But gross right? Who likes trying to lose weight? Nobody! Gross. Ick. Poop.)
Next week we have our consultation with another Reproductive Endocrinologist (nickname to come if we move forward….though I doubt it will beat “The Russian”) to see about what will be our 4th and final IVF. (If you’re new here, our insurance will cover a total of 4, so this is it). I am hoping he says something like, “I wanna try some crazy-ass shit and see what happens.” This doctor was recommended to me by some ladies in a support group last fall, one of which knew someone who went to him after 3 unsuccessful IVFs and he got her preggos on the 4th. Don’t misinterpret anything I’m saying – we’re completely realistic with what our chances are, but you never know right? New doc, hopefully a new protocol….we’ll see.
Likely this week or next we will also make our choice as to which adoption agency we want to move forward with and get that ball officially rolling. Our plan is indeed to do both at the same time. I’m on the fence as to if I should ask the adoption agencies if simultaneous IVF & adoption are “allowed” or if we should just roll the dice and keep the IVF hush-hush. Popular opinion with the few folks we’ve told is that we should keep the IVF on the down low and see what happens.
There’s much on the horizon for us in 2014 – including some likely changes with work and perhaps a move…..but we’re ready for it….or at least we hope we are.